I really like this one boy. We went out for more than a year then he just broke it off, saying he wanted to focus more on school, add to that other things like family, and yes, it's the truth. He says he still likes me and I still really like him too, after more than 6 months that he decided to call it off.
We're still spending time together and having fun even after we broke up. He says he's happy and comfortable when he's with me. One would think we're back together or we're getting back together. But no, it's even more complicated than it is. He wants to get back but he can't because of circumstances. Whichever way I think of it, it's a losing battle for me. He wants to be friends and possibly would like to develop something more in the future, if given the chance, and never wants me out of his life and I sort of want the same thing but it's just painful and unbearable to not to be able to hold his hand, or kiss him, or take care of him. Sure, if I really like him, then I should wait.
I think we should spend time together and make the most out of it. Actually be in a relationship before everything starts to move really fast. Graduation will be in 6 months. When I graduate, I might go in this internship at the States. He will go back to the States for vacation but it is a long shot we will meet, assuming that I get assigned to somewhere far away from Virginia. From there, a lot of things could happen. We would be meeting a lot of people. Then after my internship, I will come back to the Philippines. He might not come back and might pursue medical school in there.
But I don't know what will happen in the future. Maybe all I can really do right now is to wait and be patient - which sucks but there's no other choice. And hell yeah, I am stubborn.