I'm a not so normal person leading an extraordinary life. I say extraordinary because of the people and the environment around me and the beauty I find in things that I'm interested in or I happen to encounter. I say a not so normal person because I'm half crazy like what my Username states LOL. Kidding aside, it's HalfCrazy because of whatever randomness comes out of my mouth and how I try to break stereotypes, being mature and immature, being interested in out of this world things, and being funny and serious at certain times.
I remember the person I was, someone who was stupid enough to not read books, someone who can't stand to watch a movie for 2 hours or more, someone who doesn't know life enough (it's not like I know it face to face, though!), one who lacks patience, doesn't know how to respect and care, and the list goes on and on. I look back and I hate myself for being someone I don't even know! Okay, I know for a bit, but I want to be someone who I want to lead an extraordinary life, not a normal life with the same shit, not one of those people who just follow the people around them without having a say as if they do not own their lives! I was one of the teens that people love to hate.
So I changed, even if I don't remember what phase exactly but I do know it was one point in my life where my family and I were caught up in a crisis and I was having a little bit of trouble with someone else. A time when before going to sleep, even if I hardly get any that time, I'm like, "What's gonna happen, tomorrow is another day but it will be another one of those days I have to face without nothing." I don't know if you guys ever get that feeling, being mad and bitter at the world for having some sort of catastrophe to befall on you. I don't want to live those days again but those days taught me many things about life. I'm not saying I'm an expert but being in that situation and surviving it, getting over it, it made me feel.. well, strong, like I can take on anything. Like what's worse than that time of my life, right? But I know that's not the worse life has to offer, I know there are still many hurdles to jump over but while things are doing good now, I have to enjoy the moment. Take in everything and engrave it on my mind and pray it's gonna stay there for many years to come.
I'm not perfect but I'm trying to get to know myself better, trying to be a good person, trying to do whatever is more appropriate, be open to more ideas and all that "Me, only better!" stuff. I'm just thankful having these wonderful people around me especially my family and my friends that are always around and people that I have yet to meet. Now I can say my life is extraordinary because of them and I know it gets much better from there, probably until the day I die. Or maybe I'm just saying that.
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Just some ramblings I really wanted to get off my chest. I can't do any of these 'expressing' in real life hahaha. Now I want to hear whatever you have to say because I'm all about the love!
Do you think your life is extraordinary? Do you look at your life in a different point of view? Can you tell who you were back then and why did you change? Are you happy with your life right now?